Oh Baby.

 A lot has happened since my last personal blog post. Starting with tomorrow. It's the big D-Day. The final hearing for my divorce. These last few weeks prepping for it have been stressful. With me being 1700 miles away, I have been relying on the USPS and email/fax to transport all these important documents.

Well, then the governments computer systems got hacked so then it became just mail. Oh boy. Not fun. As of now, though, everything is in place for my virtual hearing tomorrow. I pray it goes well and smoothly, because I have been a mess.

On another note, we went hiking a few weeks back for a photo shoot. This is an image from our location that I took and it is breathtaking. I mean that quite literally too, because it was a 4 mile trek to get here and I almost died. Not really, but it was tough!

We got the news finally, it's a GIRL. She is a healthy baby for the most part. I am having some minor issues but according to professionals, we will be okay. 

She has been growing like a weed, and let me tell you... It's been hard. I knew pregnancy would be hard, especially on me. Some days, it is a lot harder than I could ever imagine. Some days, I won't eat. Well, not that I won't, but I can't. It makes me feel worse. Some days, I eat anything I can get my hands on. Nowadays, since she is growing, my stomach is super tight and it hurts. It feels almost like period cramps, and those with PCOS can tell you, they suck much worse for us. 

Alex has been so amazing, and I really am blessed beyond measure to have him in my life. Back home, I would also have my church family to rely on as well, and I still have those same people in my life... Here, it's just been harder. With COVID around, I haven't had a chance to really meet with anyone from my ward. (And it's a HUGE ward.) I was able to meet one amazing lady, and ironically we met through the non-profit we both volunteer for, Pueblo United. Michelle reminds me so much of my branch members from back home and I am glad to have met her. She has not once judged me for the things I have done... (Like getting pregnant out of wedlock, while technically married to someone else.) The missionaries here have also been trying to bring others around. We got to meet a couple around our age, Levi & Camila. They are super nice, and also did not judge us. That makes me super happy and confident about the other members of this ward.

Willow is super excited to have a baby sister. She also is super excited to have me in her life. She loves to ask for me and say my name. It makes me feel really special. She is one special kid, and I love her to pieces. To know the feeling is mutual just makes my heart burst with love and excitement. She is going to be the best big sister, I just know it!

Annie is also very excited about Freya Luna. (Even though Annie called her Luna Belle.) It's the most precious thing. I sent her a copy of this sonograph, and she has it prominently displayed on her refrigerator. Annie is also a little doctor (Along with Princess Willow) and one day, I showed her my belly and told her Luna was in there. She told me that I needed to see a doctor. I replied, "Well, Annie, you are a doctor!" She got a little quieter and said, "I can't handle that." Then proceeded to tell me to see Dr. Willow. 

I will gladly let these little doctors take over. They are super qualified, as you know.